Saturday Morning

I had horrible dreams Thursday night and I was scared to go to sleep last night. I am so happy to report no bad dreams! WOOHOO.
I have a million things to do today lets make a list.
clean house
photo shoot
get nails done
go to grocery store
make cocktail hour snacks
pick up babysitter
have cocktail hour fun with friends
kristie's b day dinner
take babysitter home
go to sleep.

Bill gets home Tuesday and I can't wait to have him to myself. I support everything he does and I fully believe in him but sometimes I want to take him away from the world for a few hours and just have him all for me. It's really crazy to me to have these feelings for him. I was seriously so happy to be getting away from my last relationship and to be alone for once in my life. I guess that was not meant to be.
I didn't fall in love with Bill immediately. I didn't even think I would. I had no clue it was even headed for that.
I found Bill on myspace about a year ago now. I added him to an account I made for a little web show my friend and I were doing. I had an idea for making a documentary about behind the curtain of stand up. I just love stand up so omuch and I thought that it would be really fun to make. So I found him and 2 other guys but I didn't contact them because I wasn't ready to start yet. Fast forward months later to march 31, 2007. Kristie and I went to go see Robert Kelly at the improv. He had 2 openers, Bill and Ryan. To be honest. I don't really remember seeing Bill. I can't remember my initial reaction. I remember Ryan because I saw him before the show and I remember thinking this guy is either robert kelly's roadie or he is a flasher. I kind of rememeber bill being on stage but I know that overall I thought the show was great and all the guys were really good. I remember walking out of the show and saying bye to Robert and I know Ryan was there but bill is absent from my memory.
The next day bill found me on myspace and we started talking. I asked him about the project and then I realized that this is the same guy I found months before. It was very serendipitious. Even then we started hanging out and eventually things went farther but I still didn't realize where it was headed.
I still don't know. I know that I want to be with him and I am ready to move all the way to New York City to support him and be with him and make this thing work. I will give up my little neighborhood with a big house and a big yard for a huge city with a tiny place and no yard. I will give up my friends for annonymity.
I think he is worth it.